Sunday, March 29, 2009!
HandWritten on; 8:53 PM
At risk of sounding like a complete bitch who like men to compete for her, I am going to say that you two are now in DIRECT competiton.
F, I know you like me. I hope this can go further, it seems like after our little hookup I see you everywhere. Also, im sorry I couldn't go to the two places you invited me. Next time ill say yes.
B, I saw you looking at me when I was talking to J (a new guy on the scene?), and I hope you aren't jealous about F. Just get your act together and you can have me!
I like you both equally, you guys have to help me make up my mind. Show me who to choose! Overall, it appears I now have an abundance of guys in my life. I hope this lasts.
Labels: B, F, J(new)
Monday, March 23, 2009!
HandWritten on; 4:35 PM
Today I realised how much I love triggers. For me, triggers are things that remind me of things I have done that I didnt recall until just then (whether it be because its been awhile since it happened, or if alcohol was involved).
Today I had a trigger about Friday spent with F. God, he is so lovely. I mean R and R don't seem to think so, but he is nice to me, and that matters. Although, the bad thing about hooking up with someone, is that you never know if they would like to do it again. I mean, I don't absolutely LOVE him, nor am I even close to love, but if oppurtunity arose I would hook up with him again, even if I was sober.
Is it wrong to enjoy drinking alcohol? I don't know, but I like it. Sometimes I do things I regret i.e, shown in
this post. But Friday night I do not regret, I had had my eye on him for awhile, and I had always harboured a teeny crush. I mean come on, we used to catch the same bus, I used to see him everyday!
Anyway, onto my next point. I was thinking today how I must be good at showing that I like someone. I know I only have three examples at the moment, but three is pretty good.
i) F from Friday. I started hitting on him from the moment he walked in the door of the party.
ii) N from D's party. Yeah, so I didnt hook up with him, but he did want to (and the only reason we didnt, is cos I left early) and I had kinda been flirting with him.
iii) HIM, from the above linked post. I know, I shouldnt be so dumb! I actually caused that one. But I didnt think he would realise I was hitting on him, nor did I think he would actually do anything about it!
So yeah, three reasons. I know they aren't very good reasons, but they are some of the only times I have made it obvious and flirted with a boy. God, that makes me sound so frigid and shy, but its not really. i) and iii) I had alcohol in my system, and with ii) (this is going to sound bitchy) but I was only doing it to see if a boy would respond to my flirting, I knew I was never going to see him again.
Yeah, this has been quite a long post, but I figured it was time to catch up. I havent posted in a while, but yeah.
Also, N, from a while ago? He was/is (not quite sure) going out with H. I felt jealous when I found that out, but deep down I knew we could never work, I mean we are into totally different stuff.
Labels: alcohol, F, H, HIM, N, triggers
Wednesday, March 11, 2009!
HandWritten on; 4:31 PM
I just stumbled upon the most touching blog I have ever read. Well, I guess for this blog, its not so much read, as saw. This blog is filled with seemingly normal images, but with a very touching message. Some, are a little dark and scary. Others, not so much.
But thats why I love it. It just seems so real, the images have
real quotes added to them.
The link is
here.It really makes you think about things, in a way that you usually don't.
Just so you know, the blogs owner is doing an excerise in creativity, but the messages are still just as relevant, even if they aren't true. Just think about it, any caption could apply to those photos and it may be true.
Labels: A blog of note
