Today, was the best day for us in a long time. You spoke to me and I started to realise that it was me who was wrong all along. We havent talked in ages (my fault I know), but now I know. I will try to be better, I promise.
I know what I did was stupid. I acted childish and ran away from my feelings. I wont do that again. I shouldnt have ignored you like I did, I was afraid of getting hurt and lied to myself about you. I kept telling myself that you only cared what others thought, when its not true. I know now that it was me who was worried what others would think, I know you are stronger and I should trust you not to be swayed by others.
I just hope we can regain the friendship we had and that I can actually follow through with my feelings this time. I know I dont love you now, but love can grow. I know we have less than a year until we all go our seperate ways, but lets make these months count.
Love from,
A girl who is absolutely sorry.
P.S. I dont know and I guess I will never know how you felt before, but one day I hope we reconcile and you will tell me all that happened.
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